My Testimony of God Going Before Me and Meeting My Every Need

I never see God working in my life until days later, after the times of doubt and struggles and learning I have 3 pre-cancerous cells that need looked at by a gynecologist that is when I look back and see God at work.
I had not been to a family doctor in 13 years. I had had my gallbladder taken out back in 2006.  I had made 2 or 3 trips to the ER before I had my gallbladder taken out and I had been to Urgent Care for the stomach flu so as far as having an overall wellness check, pap smear or breast exam it had been around 13 years...oh did I mention that I didn't have health insurance 13 years ago? Huge factor in why I didn't go see a doctor for all those years.
So, I have had Obama care for about 3 years. I should have gone for a wellness check but never found the time...until August 10th, 2017. Something inside of me prompted me to go (I believe the Holy Spirit is the One that prompted me) to fill out a new patient application at a doctor in Portland, IN. This doctor took care of my mother and delivered 2 of my grandbabies. So, I had heard many good things about him and had watched him deliver one of my grandbabies.
So, the doctor accepts my application and I get my first appointment...just for a wellness check.  The nurse ask me when was the last time I had had a pap smear and I said, oh about 13 years ago. The nurse tells me that since it has been so long she is going to go ask and see if I should get one scheduled. Well, too my surprise I was getting one during my wellness check...something this office never does with a first time patient but since it had been so long...
A week later the phone rings and it is the doctor’s office with my pap smear results. I have 3 pre-cancerous cells that needs to be looked at...at this point is when I start seeing God at work. If I would have had my way about it I would never have gone to fill out that new patient application for another year or two and those precancerous cells would have gone from stage one to probably stage 4 so I'm seeing God at work.
Let's zoom now to the day I find out I have stage 1 cervical cancer. Monday, October 16, 2017. I'm told the surgeon my wonderful GYN is sending me to will either do radiation or a hysterectomy maybe both. All the information my GYN is giving me is flooding my thoughts...its stage 1 HPV cancer and it is treatable so to me and my faith in God I'm good with this.
Let's zoom to a week later on a Saturday morning when I have quiet time and I'm doing my devotions...something I had neglected doing. I'm setting there trying to concentrate on reading some scripture and get to wondering what Our Daily Breads devotion is for October 16th...this is the day I started seeing that this cancer is not about me but it is ALL about God and I know He is taking care of my and letting me know He's in control and that my life's purpose is to introduce Him to a hurting world. He has shown me that He is my Creator, my Shepherd and the Perfecter of my faith.
With this cancer I am to be a beacon for God. To not hide my light under a basket, to let everyone know that I'm not afraid of this cancer because it isn't about me it is about God...letting go and completely trusting God with my life. It is with faith and hope that my testimony will lead someone to Christ. He has been very present with me throughout my life but the older I get and the more I read my Bible the closer and deeper my relationship is with Him and I see Him working out all the details in my life and He will do the same for you all you have to do is ask...”Father, help my unbelief to believe in you!”
God wants you to see your need for Him. He is telling you now is the time to come and follow Him...He will give you peace in your life that surpasses ALL understanding.  He will take your burdens and carry them for you. He may be leading you home...your heavenly home or He may be leading you to do His will for a while longer and lead you He Will!
Through Social Media/Facebook God has led me to you and even though I don't know you God does and He says "Come. Now is the time to pick up your cross and follow  Me?"
I hope you accept His invitation.
And when you start looking for a church home...never be satisfied with a "feel good" church. Find a church that is Bible based and a preacher that steps on your toes and preaches like it is. When you find a church family that is all about the Truth and the Life and the Way. When you find a church that is all about God and Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit then pull yourself up to the table and be fed the Word of God. Taste and see that His word will satisfy your real hunger for what this world cannot give you.
And know that you will always be in my prayers.
Your sister in Christ
Tammy
Seed Sprout Haven
Genesis 1:1
Psalm 139
Matthew 28:28-30
Colossians 1:9-10
  So we have not stopped praying for you since we first heard about you. We ask God to give you complete knowledge of his will and to give you spiritual wisdom and understanding.Then the way you live will always honor and please the Lord, and your lives will produce every kind of good fruit. All the while, you will grow as you learn to know God better and better.

Picture of a sunrise I took a couple of days ago. November 2017.
Perfect picture for a Bible verse.

The Sting of Pearls

Growing Strong in the Seasons of Life
Charles R. Swindoll
Got your yellow pad and nickel pencil out? If not, just stop long enough to make a mental list of some of the things that irritate you. Here are a few suggestions that will get you started.
Traffic jams, cold food, squeaking doors, talkative people, interruptions, incompetence, long lines, reminders, flat tires, crying babies, deadlines, balancing checkbooks, phone calls, nosy neighbors, doing dishes, misplaced keys, being rushed, mother-in-law, untrained pets, late planes, weeds, stuck zippers, tight clothes, high prices, peeling onions.
Any of those make you want to grind your teeth? Some of it sounds like today, doesn't it? It's easy to get the feeling that you can't win-no matter how hard you try. You start to entertain the thought I saw printed rather hurriedly on a small wooden plaque several weeks ago:
I am planning to have a nervous breakdown. I have earned it...I deserve it...I have worked hard for it...and nobody's going to keep me from having it!
If it weren't for irritations we'd be very patient, wouldn't we? We could wade calmly through life's placid sea and never encounter a ripple. Unfortunately,  irritations comprise the major occupational hazard of the human race. One of these days it should dawn upon our minds that we'll never be completely free from irritations as long as we tread Planet Earth. Never. Upon arriving at such a profound conclusion, it would be wise to consider an alternative to losing our cool. The secret is ADJUSTING.
Sure, that sounds simple. But, it isn't.  Several things tend to keep us on the ulcerated edge of irritability. If we lived in the zoo, the sign outside our cage might read: "HUMAN BEING - CREATURE OF HABIT." We tend to develop habit reactions, wrong though they may be. We are also usually in a hurry...inordinately wedded to the watch on our wrist. Furthermore, many of our expectations for the day are unrealistic. Echoing in our heads are the demanding voices of objectives that belong to a week, rather than a single day. All of this makes the needle on our inner pressure gauge whirl like Mario Andretti's tachometer. When you increase the heat to our highly pressurized system by a fiery irritation or two...or three...BOOM! Off goes the lid and out comes the steam.
It helps me if I remember that God is in charge of my day...not I. While He is pleased with the wise management of time and intelligent planning from day to day, He is mainly concerned with the development of inner character. He charts growth toward maturity, concerning Himself with the cultivation of priceless, attractive qualities that make us Christlike down deep within. One of His preferred methods of training us is through adjustment to irritation.
A perfect illustration? The oyster and it's pearl.
Pearls are the product of pain. For some unknown reason, the shell of the oyster gets pierced and an alien substance-a grain of sand-slips inside. On the entry of that foreign irritant, all the resources within the tiny, sensitive oyster rush to the spot and begin to release healing fluids that otherwise would have remained dormant. By and by the irritant is covered and the wound is healed -by a pearl. No other gem has so fascinating a history. It is a symbol of stress-a healed wound...a precious, tiny jewel conceived through irritation, born of adversity, nursed by adjustments. Had there been no wounding, no irritating interruptions,  there could have been no pearl. Some oysters are never wounded...and those who seek for gems toss them aside, fit only for stew.
No wonder our heavenly home has as its entrance PEARLY gates! Those who go through them need no explanation.  They are the ones who have been wounded, bruised, and have responded to the sting of irritations with the pearl of adjustment.
J.B. Phillips must have realized this as he paraphrased James 1:2-4:
When all kinds of trials crowd into our lives, my bothers, don't resent them as intruders, but welcome them as friends! Realize that they have come to test your endurance. But let the process go on until that endurance is fully developed, and you will find you have become men and women of mature character....